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My liver is shot with fatty tissues and been warned to stay away from it but I couldn't til now. My whole body aches, pain in my stomach, chest and can barely feel my arms and fingers.

My legs are numb. I sweat every night and have to change my Tshirt 4 times during the night. My neck hurts, by back side hurts, shit everything hurts About to lose my job and don't even discuss how my personal life

All hurts but keep going for that drink. Today I made a mental note and hoping it will help.

It is Tuesday 9 pm and will not have a drink again. Asking friends to remind me all the time of my. None of you are my friends but wouldn't mind a reminder about it every day or so.

It is not the first time I complain about it but could be my last.

Any ex alcoholics here that wants to throw in their 20 cents?. If not, would not mind a daily reminder from members here.

It is Tuesday 9 pm and had my last drink.
 
Alcohol is a poison, hence your liver needs to clean it out of your system.

I believe the brain acquires the addiction from learned behaviour.

I am addicted to certain things too.

Addictions are very, very hard to overcome.

Always speak out-loud as you have done so today about your addiciton. It will help you.

If I can help you, I will.
 
Personally I haven't had a drink since June 27th 1986.

Recognized that I had a problem that was about ready to spiral out of control.

I attended a few AA meetings and heard a lot of familiar stories.

I switched one addiction for another and threw myself into working out and physical activities. Seemed like a good idea at the time but me being me I took it way to far and am paying the price health wise today.

After reading the books authored by Gabor Mate, particularly ''In The Realm Of Hungry Ghosts'' and realizing the extent of the abuse I incurred as a child I began to understand why I was so involved in self destructive behaviour. I only wish I would have been privy to the tools that exist today 30 years ago. But like a friend once told me '' all your yesterdays are not worth one tomorrow''.

So don't look back. Look forward to a new sober and improved you. The time is now.

Get yourself to an AA meeting as fast as you can. Get sponsored. You are not alone and the support you need is out there.
 
Wish you luck. There are medications your doctor can subscribe. Be honest with him or her and they will help you.
 
Maurice Boscorelli said:
Personally I haven't had a drink since June 27th 1986.

Recognized that I had a problem that was about ready to spiral out of control.

I attended a few AA meetings and heard a lot of familiar stories.

I switched one addiction for another and threw myself into working out and physical activities. Seemed like a good idea at the time but me being me I took it way to far and am paying the price health wise today.

After reading the books authored by Gabor Mate, particularly ''In The Realm Of Hungry Ghosts'' and realizing the extent of the abuse I incurred as a child I began to understand why I was so involved in self destructive behaviour. I only wish I would have been privy to the tools that exist today 30 years ago. But like a friend once told me '' all your yesterdays are not worth one tomorrow''.

So don't look back. Look forward to a new sober and improved you. The time is now.

Get yourself to an AA meeting as fast as you can. Get sponsored. You are not alone and the support you need is out there.
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We all have our stories. Maurice has great points and ideas how to help yourself.

Get help and pronto, friend.
 
Addendum:

Last year my one of best friends since grade 2 whom I am still close to went stone cold sober after 39 tears of abuse.

I remember him and I and the rest of our crew getting ripped three or four nights a week starting from about the the of 13.

He inherited 300K from a trust set up when he was 19. And then discovered cocaine.

He blew every cent on coke, alcohol and hookers.

I've seen him do 2 eight balls and pound back a 40 ouncer of vodka and not miss a beat.

It wasn't until his father shortly before his death apologized for failing him as a dad that the entirety of his life of addiction and the impact he had on the people he loved finally set in.

Today he still faces his demons but is winning the battle one second, one minute, one day at a time.

Can't tell you how proud I am of him.
 
Beer

I'd be glad go with you to AA meetings at lunchtime Thursday and Friday and Wednesday evening. We can also discuss rehabs that are available. The first month is tough - too tough to try to go it alone. It's great you reached out to the group. Glad to continue chat via PM
 
Definately get yourself to an AA meeting today, and tomorrow and the day after that. You can do it, one day at a time.
I've been clean over 26 yrs
I know you can get and stay sober, and be happy. I've seen thousands recover and celebrate recovery.
Better that any life we had ever known!


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Beer,

You are in the right place......Many here have worked out addictions and still are.
It is in a support group you will find strength......AA is indeed a good place to start.
But the only person who can make this work is you. Find the strength to go one minute at a time, today.
 
Good luck Beer. You can do it and you are not alone. :good:
ps. just a thought and you dont have to agree with me, perhaps changing your avatar is a small step to confronting many of your challenges.
 
Please see your doctor, and I hope you've already been to an AA meeting.

You're stronger and braver than you realize. But please don't try to do this alone, it's so much harder that way...it's ok to accept help and support, please know that we're here for you in any way we can be.

I agree with Peace, a name change is a good idea. So until you come up with something better, I'm gonna call you NoBeer. Here's your avatar.

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Hang in there, it will get better. :BigHug: :BigHug:
 
I have met a few amazing people but when they drink, alcohol takes over their personality. One of them realized she had to quit. It took her five years to say no more and she's feeling beautiful again. Yet she's careful of not feeling tempted again especially when she's having a bad day or feeling alone.
So NoBEER you are not alone and there are places to help you.
 
You've taken the first step, omitting your problem, that is a great start:)Wishing you success and peace. Seek medical help though, seldom can over coming an addiction be done alone or without professional help. All the best.
 
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