Train, my son has not pass.....it just I won't be seeing him anymore ....I was raised to be straight forward
and say what I feel and think....Yes as most here already know I do get in trouble for it.....So my side
of the family, even if we are angry with each other, we get over it and say what we have too..
My ex family is not like that.....They have so many issues....now my son is drawn into
this way of thinking.....My ex has made it so my son won't see me anymore.....
I have had enough.....I feel each step I take forward I am going 4 steps back....
Yes I know he is alive, but we were so close, he would never treat me how he is now...
Nothing can take this pain away and I hate to say this my ex has taken the only person I care for
to hurt me....Made sure that I won't be able to see him .....
I feel this is all my fault even with an open marriage.....even with each rule he made and broke..I should
have let the 27 year old woman who he screwed in the home that was to be a safe place for me and he wanted her to come over all the time ....and let her call me names ...I should have just not said anything because I have lost the most Precious Person in my life.....I should have just not said anything to cause the argument, I should have done what I always did say OK....
I am sorry....I am....but I feel so sad and heart broken because I know what is happening.....I do not have the energy anymore ....I am so broken by it all......I am so stupid really...I was giving my son time...not knowing what was happening between him and my ex......I really am stupid....
I am sorry....really....I won't bother anyone anymore......