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You are failing at life

I have not yet mastered the concept of relaxation.

I have hobbies, & artistic pursuits. I've travelled for pleasure. I implement self care. I love all of the things tied to these, and yet I fail to master relaxation for a very simple reason.

I am unable to truly give myself permission to 'set my life down'. Those pressing things that crop up, the perception of responsibility blending with the reality of duties, and the things dependent on my actions leaves me perpetually fighting my instincts to 'produce' and 'accomplish' when I try to 'relax'.

I think it would make more sense to my mind if I was more highly strung, but I have come to the awareness that it stems from my need to take care of those around me. I need to see their smile, and know their day/week/month/year is better than it might have been. Even at great costs to myself... I've put myself second (if not last) for so many years that it has taken me more than the '21 days to create/break a habit'.

I'd fought so hard to 'be' what was 'expected' that I'd forgotten my own expectations and needs.

It was positively exhausting to be 'on' 24/7, and with a lot of effort I am now able to 'put a bookmark in it'... I also know 'this world' is as much about my relaxation, recreation and having my needs met through the human connections as it is for those I'd connected with.

It is remarkable what clarity comes when life shifts in the multitude of ebbs and flows that we experience.
 
Desire Evaline said:
I have not yet mastered the concept of relaxation.

I have hobbies, & artistic pursuits. I've travelled for pleasure. I implement self care. I love all of the things tied to these, and yet I fail to master relaxation for a very simple reason.

I am unable to truly give myself permission to 'set my life down'. Those pressing things that crop up, the perception of responsibility blending with the reality of duties, and the things dependent on my actions leaves me perpetually fighting my instincts to 'produce' and 'accomplish' when I try to 'relax'.

I think it would make more sense to my mind if I was more highly strung, but I have come to the awareness that it stems from my need to take care of those around me. I need to see their smile, and know their day/week/month/year is better than it might have been. Even at great costs to myself... I've put myself second (if not last) for so many years that it has taken me more than the '21 days to create/break a habit'.

I'd fought so hard to 'be' what was 'expected' that I'd forgotten my own expectations and needs.

It was positively exhausting to be 'on' 24/7, and with a lot of effort I am now able to 'put a bookmark in it'... I also know 'this world' is as much about my relaxation, recreation and having my needs met through the human connections as it is for those I'd connected with.

It is remarkable what clarity comes when life shifts in the multitude of ebbs and flows that we experience.

This is you?.

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Desire Evaline said:
I have not yet mastered the concept of relaxation.

I have hobbies, & artistic pursuits. I've travelled for pleasure. I implement self care. I love all of the things tied to these, and yet I fail to master relaxation for a very simple reason.

I am unable to truly give myself permission to 'set my life down'. Those pressing things that crop up, the perception of responsibility blending with the reality of duties, and the things dependent on my actions leaves me perpetually fighting my instincts to 'produce' and 'accomplish' when I try to 'relax'.

I think it would make more sense to my mind if I was more highly strung, but I have come to the awareness that it stems from my need to take care of those around me. I need to see their smile, and know their day/week/month/year is better than it might have been. Even at great costs to myself... I've put myself second (if not last) for so many years that it has taken me more than the '21 days to create/break a habit'.

I'd fought so hard to 'be' what was 'expected' that I'd forgotten my own expectations and needs.

It was positively exhausting to be 'on' 24/7, and with a lot of effort I am now able to 'put a bookmark in it'... I also know 'this world' is as much about my relaxation, recreation and having my needs met through the human connections as it is for those I'd connected with.

It is remarkable what clarity comes when life shifts in the multitude of ebbs and flows that we experience.

You write very well, you also a writer?.
 
God said:
This is you?.

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Yes that is a link to one of the few ads I have up already.

Since payment is sent already I will confirm... Thank you for reminding me to update photos on there.

Anto said:
You write very well, you also a writer?.

Actually I am trying to work that into my schedule. It is cathartic, and actually puts me into a relaxed state. Thank you for the compliment! It meant a lot to me.
 
DannyDevito said:
I don't want to discuss my failures. Why should you :unknw:

Because I am not afraid to admit it. Mind you, if you keep making the same mistakes then call yourself a loser.
 
A-Legend said:
Because I am not afraid to admit it. Mind you, if you keep making the same mistakes then call yourself a loser.

Hey now! I resemble that remark!
 
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