I'm either a masochist or an idiot

[buxombomb]

Well, I've had a few escorts say to the agency: if I'm off shift and he calls, call me because I'll book in just for him....and have had escorts want to continue to see me after they've left the biz.....so you can actually get free sex after paid sex lol....

you must be very good in bed

 

[Chunky]

Dave you need to go out, get drunk and laid, it's as simple as that.

 

[tboy]

you must be very good in bed

good enuff I guess....but maybe it's more that I'm a decent person more than that......

 

[a 1 player]

good enuff I guess....but maybe it's more that I'm a decent person more than that......

:rofl!::rofl!::rofl!:


















just kidding.

 

[Rebecca Richardson]

Dear Dave,

:heart:

That is all, I don't know what else to say except that I wish you were kinder to yourself. You deserve warmth and compassion, and I wish that'd start with you.

xoxo,
Becky (who still remembers Diet Coke and chocolate hedgehogs)

 

[-b]

:rofl!::rofl!::rofl!:

I reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy wanted to comment but...............I am saving up ......:rofl1:

 

[RAWD]

I always feel badly for Dave when he comes on and says something self-deprecating.

You're obviously a smart guy, and very self-aware. Maybe too much so.

The only thing that comes to mind is not to worry about convention or "normal". I think normal makes Dave rather uncomfortable. Maybe you just want companionship and not sex. Maybe you just want friendship and not romance.

I was an awkward kid and teen. I still am in many ways as an adult, though perhaps I hide it better now. All I know is that when I meet someone special, it's easy. Great relationships are never forced (or paid for!). They just happen. So let them happen. Do what interests you, and you might discover someone special along the way.


p.s., taking care of others can be extremely rewarding. But we're all human, and we need our own nurturing too. You can't keep giving and never refill your own tank.

 

[tboy]

:rofl!::rofl!::rofl!:
just kidding.

(asshole lol)

 

[tboy]

I reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyy wanted to comment but...............I am saving up ......:rofl1:

btw bliss, how many escorts you paid for sex wanted to see you off the clock?

I seem to recall you posting.......................NONE.

Say anything you want, the truth is in the pudding......

 

[a 1 player]

(asshole lol)

I deserved that, but could not resist the shot.

 

[tboy]

I deserved that, but could not resist the shot.

I know, and it was a good one!

 

[-b]

btw bliss, how many escorts you paid for sex wanted to see you off the clock?

I seem to recall you posting.......................NONE.

Say anything you want, the truth is in the pudding......

Say you who say show me my post when I did post it........
You put it out there can not take hon, Ok I will stop teasing you tboy....You can't take it......It is ok...I understand....

As a matter of fact I did see one without paying.......I am seeing another as a friend and I do pm a couple joking and having fun.....Why do I not post their names...Hmmmm......because of this.....and why have I stop writing reviews......Hmmm.......because you and MB.......I do not want them to have issues......from you and your small brain.....Also I still love DATY......At least I can say I am dating an escort but you have A long Time ago when I did go out with escorts........Also I am dating civvies and making new friends....I am getting stronger since last year......

So tboy I will not tease you anymore and BM you two have a hard time with coming up with funny material...It ok I understand......

 

[Blank_Dave]

You have time to read tons of self help books, therefore you have time to put a few into action.

Of course, I do most of my reading on the can, or on my breaks at work though. :smiling:

So, count your blessings my friend...you do NOT know how well you have it......

Part of it is I don't know what I'm missing either.

BTW I remember you were really into working out, how's that going for you? I know it's really helping me mentally besides physically.

Well, I broke my leg back in August, while training in jui jitsu. So I've put on a bit of weight since, and I'm back to working that off, and dealing with a strained shoulder. I would like to get back to kickboxing at least, but to do so I'd need to find a good meal replacement shake or such.

Dave you need to go out, get drunk and laid, it's as simple as that.

Can't drink because of my brain benders (anti-depressants), and I've never had any luck getting laid on my own merits.:sorry:

(who still remembers Diet Coke and chocolate hedgehogs)

:blush:

Maybe you just want companionship and not sex. Maybe you just want friendship and not romance.

Actually, I think in many ways that might be more along the lines of what I'm looking for. I don't see myself as being the romantic type of person. A romantic dreamer yes, a romantic activist no.

In part it was really me just venting my frustration at this habit of looking up escorts, despite no really being my thing. I mean I don't like roller coasters either, but I certainly don't go looking up theme/coaster parks.

 

[Robintheboywonder]

Dave grab a helmet, tights and a colorful top and lets go paint the town. You can be Super Dave Osbourne

 

[tboy]

Say you who say show me my post when I did post it........
......

what the fuck are you talking about???? Stay off the pipe bliss....you're bad enough straight!!!!

As for the rest of your post, well, I call the bullshit card on that.....you specifically came on here and posted how you'd fallen for escorts and they wanted to have nothing to do with you. If your most recent post is true, you would have posted this info then....not MONTHS later.

 

[Auggie]

Dave, you spend a lot of energy rationalizing why you can't or shouldn't be happy. It's pathetic.

Your self help books were a complete waste of time if you don't even try to live your life in a positive way.

 

[Blank_Dave]

Dave, you spend a lot of energy rationalizing why you can't or shouldn't be happy. It's pathetic.

Your self help books were a complete waste of time if you don't even try to live your life in a positive way.

Now one can't be happy all the time, and it's foolish to even try. I'm happy at work (especially now that I took a demotion). I'm happy at the gym. I'm happy with my basses.

Where I'm not happy is with regards to relationships, be it interpersonal or romantic in nature. But as I told my therapist, right now it just doesn't feel important. I feel no great desire to form a social network.

And I can be a great many things....A worker, organizer, joker, bassist, runner, MMA fighter, weight lifter, the list goes on....But things I struggle with are being romantic or intimate. When seeing SPs that can prove to be a problem.

Remember Rebecca's last chat session? She said she'd be happy having wings and a beer. That got me to thinking, I'd probably be much happier and more satisfied if I saw Rebecca or Genevieve under those circumstances, than than in the 'normal' SP sense. I find the time spent with them talking is much more enjoyable, in many ways, than the act.

 

[Auggie]

Remember Rebecca's last chat session? She said she'd be happy having wings and a beer. That got me to thinking, I'd probably be much happier and more satisfied if I saw Rebecca or Genevieve under those circumstances, than than in the 'normal' SP sense. I find the time spent with them talking is much more enjoyable, in many ways, than the act.

That makes sense, you're meeting them on more equal terms and there's more give and take in a social way.
I'm glad you have varied interests and you're good at some of them, keep exploring life in this positive way.